Look at that! Here I am! Really over a year and a half later?! Who cares I’m here. This one is for you Melanie. It’s probably going to be crap, but I’m going to just type and hit post to simply remind myself I want to do this, and damn it it doesn’t have to be good.
So quick update: ummm well from my 2 posts a million years ago a lot has changed, and I’m happy to say it’s all for the better!
I had a list in my first post on here of how I was going to kick off 2013 and that somehow change would be created. Oh boy was it ever!
1. I lost my job, you know the one I wasn’t happy at and tired of not being empowered to do what they had hired me for. Tragic you ask? Nope. Hard, hurtful and a blessing. I knew I needed change and it allowed me to stop sitting and make something happen. And what a great experience to have and coach/mentor from. I was already looking for a new job and without being fired, I would have just taken another marketing job and probably still be sitting there day dreaming.
2. While at home figuring out what was next, I fell in love with CrossFit! Yup check another goal of 2013 off! 3x’s a week working out minimum, shoot… try 5-6 minimum and I found myself surrounded with encouraging people and in the best shape of my life. Hell I even began competing!
3. My daughter turned 1! A big accomplishment for any parent and literally on her exact birthday, my daughter provided us with yet another challenge… by fluke we found out she had a softball size tumor behind her right lung sitting next to her spinal cord. Stage 2 Neuroblastoma. Blessed to be in the care of one of the best children’s hospitals; our surgeon and oncologist were able to remove the entire tumor and Sonora has almost been cancer free for a year! This clearly delayed my career planning path I was on, and truly that was a good thing. I still wasn’t ready to take another step and it kept me from again just jumping in and taking a salaried position hoping for the best.
4. 2014 is here! Shit, now what do I do??? Well I pussy-footed (favorite demeaning quote from a middle school gym teacher) around a little longer and begin helping my Dad with a few projects for his Executive Coaching business. Eureka! That’s it. I spend my free time reading self-help books and there is nothing more I enjoy than empowering others! Plus my love for public speaking, and true passion for being a Feminist, this could actually work! Now a Jr. Coach for PS363 I have taken a step and weeding through other baby steps to find my most suited niche.
So here I am! I don’t know exactly what it looks like yet, and I don’t know when I will make good money at it. What I do know though, I haven’t been this happy and fulfilled in quite some time. I am a better wife, mom, and friend for it. I’m engaged and so open to learning more about myself and taking more risks. I mean at this point what do I have to lose? We have learned to live without my salary and that was my biggest hold up for the longest time.
So I’m writing today to simply have written something. It’s not pretty and I’m not going to even proof read it for fear I will decide not to publish it. I am finding my “more” I dreamed of and felt guilty for feeling for so long. It’s going to happen and I’m not afraid anymore.
PS: Did I mention I’m also expecting a son in 3 months?!
2013 threw many stones and in 2014 we have no concerns about overcoming anything!